So today was the last Psych Theory class of the semester.
We finished the Grant Reviews (thank god), and had our last presentations. While it's been interesting to read people's research proposals and participate in a mock grant review exercise, it's also been extremely frustrating: 4 hours straight every class of reading proposals, critiquing them, and watching people beat others to death with their extremely important opinions. Oi vey, the chuztpah has indeed reared it's ugly head.
The school year has flown by so ridiculously fast. Normally at this point in the year I'm looking forward to a school-free summer. Unfortunately, as a grad student, I have to work in the lab this summer continuing my research. I'm pretty upset about it, because I've had it with this shit and really don't enjoy it, but I'm also resigned to it at this point.
I will get time off, and I will be taking more time off than I "should". But fuck "should". "Should" is for people who care. Right now, I'm powerfully indifferent.
In fact, I'm so indifferent that I forgot my stats final is next week. I got reminded today - and it didn't even worry me. That is how much I don't care. This time last year I would have shit myself, cried for a couple of hours, and immediately gotten down to work. Now, instead, I'm typing this and watching Dr. Phil.
This isn't to say I'm not still stressed - I'm just stressed about different things. Our class took a wee informal stress questionnaire to compare our average stress levels to the normal population. The average score is 10.11. The average score for our class was 20.33.
My score was 32
. heh. That's in the Severe
category. It definitely made me laugh.
Fortunately I do have some things to look forward to. I'm going another Contiki
tour this summer. The one I chose is of Eastern Europe, and spends 2 1/2 weeks going from Germany, Slovakia, the Czech Republic, Austria, and Hungary. I'm terribly excited, as I haven't been to Eastern Europe before and I'm really looking forward to experiencing the culture - at least for a little while.