Friday, October 21, 2005

Busy, Busy, Meltdown, Busy

It's funny how things always seem to happen all at once. No matter how hard we try to plan it out, life inevitably goes its own way.

I'm definitely feeling the stress. Grant applications, worth 15,000$ - 17,500$ are due. My mail was unknowingly stopped for an unexplained reason - meaning not receiving letters of reference, transcripts, or even bills. Class presentation. Research. And to top it all off, I'm sick. A clear indication that my body's no longer able to keep up with the rest of me.

When things are within my control, I can normally handle stress pretty well. It doesn't get to me that much, I realize that there are some more important things in life than fretting over a stats assignment, and it motivates me to get the work done on time, if not early. Even then, it's still difficult to appreciate the bigger picture; to not sweat the small stuff, so to speak. I understand the important of enjoying as much of the little every day things as possible, but it's so much easier to realize it than to actually do it.

When things go wrong that are out of my control, then it's game over. No amount of cognitive rationalization is going to keep me from freaking out. heh. It's just nice to know that you have supportive friends and family that are going to be there for you when you break down, to know that someone will be able to take the reigns and say "this is what we're going to do".

On more pleasant notes, I was at the home opener for the Montreal Canadiens versus the Ottawa Senators:

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When you're feeling stressed, there's nothing like drinking copious amounts of beer and cheering on as two hockey players throw their gloves off at go at eachother like two monkeys trying to hump a football.

Side note: not all violence is fun. I saw some drunk guy get the shit kicked out of him by another drunk guy in the middle of the street last night at 3:30 am. The ambulance came and kept me up. How dare they!